Well, I've been sick the past couple of days. Been throwing up and the like. I think it's just a stomach virus or something. I've been living off of scrambled eggs, plain toast, and orange sherbert for the past 2 1/2 days. Sounds disgusting, but it's actually delicious. I don't mix em together or anything. Anyway, that's not why I'm writing. I'm writing because as of right now my mother, brother, and stepdad are on their way back from Arkansas. My brother is moving back home. They're about 5 - 6 hours away right now and they'll probably be in tomorrow. My brother and I are going to be going to my dads tomorrow afternoon/evening. That worries me. I don't want to have any form of "the talk" on Christmas Eve just before we get to my dad's house. Im just wishing and praying that my brother says he's sorry. I don't want the apology for the hurtful words, because we both said hurtful things and thats water under the bridge. What I do want is for him to recognize that he hurt me when I would call him (because I thought everything between us was fine because I deleted the other blog like I was asked to do and was told that it would squash all of the drama) and he wouldn't answer or talk to me at all. It just really hurt me when the only time he talked to me was when she* was in Italy. We had our fight last January and over the summer is when she went to Italy..or maybe even in the spring time. I dont remember. All I know is that today was the first time I had talked to my brother on the phone (other than him telling me he was too busy to talk to me because he was eating the last time I called him) when I asked him about Christmas and going to daddy's. I know that Cory is excited for bubby to come home because he hasn't seen him in almost a year. Literally. I doubt I'll ever get an apology and it's just going to be up to me to get over it. That's just going to take time.

On a lighter note, things are coming together for Christmas. Tomorrow is Christmas Eve and it's gonna be a busy day for me. I'm going to my daddy's house (about an hour and a half drive from me) and then around 11pm Steve and I are going to his parents house to exchange gifts and "have Christmas", as they put it. Im not really excited or anything, I just want it to be over with. On Christmas Day my family is having an informal dinner at my grandparents house around 2 or 3pm and we'll be exchanging gifts and eating then. Other than that, nothing really exciting. I've got to make 2 cakes, Steves gotta make his upside down cake, and I've gotta make about a dozen of deviled eggs.

Right now Im procrastinating. I should be doing the dishes (there's not many), doing a load of laundry (the only load that's left), sweeping the floor (will take about 10 minutes), cleaning the litter box (about 5 minutes), wrapping my mom and steve's moms gift (about 20 minutes and I hate wrapping gifts), and thats it. I kinda got off easy today. Don't really have much to do. At 4pm Im going to watch a show (which is in about 20 minutes) with Gretchen Wilson, whom I adore. I think she's beautiful, smart, a wunnaful singer/songwriter, and she just makes me feel good. Maybe when that special goes off, I'll feel motivated to start on the house. I hope Steve can come home early. Love his heart...he has worked overtime for the past two weeks. I've hardly seen him! I've been up for the past 3 nights (except last night) throwing up and he was sleeping. He'd wake up and hold my hair for me while I was throwing up or go and get me some mylanta (because he thinks that's a cure all for anything related to stomach and/or heartburn) and a cold washrag and get me back in bed and put the washrag on my forehead. Bout the time I'd fall asleep, the alarm would go off for him to get up and go to work. He works 10 hour days and he's worked everyday except Sundays for the past two weeks. He did get to spend some time with his brother, who lives in Wyoming but is in for the Holladays. Got him 2 new hats and he was in Heaven. He loves hats, thats for sure. The flexfit hats. Yes, i've learned all about them. He got a really nice black hat with a white bengal tiger on the front. It's cute. Looks good on him.

Anyway - I should go. Enough rambling. I'll be updating sometime after Christmas, I'm sure, to let ya'll know how the holladays went for me. New Years is going to be kinda sad cause I wont be with my family (on purpose), but kinda fun cause Steve has made plans that Im not allowed to know about! I sure do love mysteries!!!

Happy Holladays ya'll!!